On Giving Up, Giving In--A Little
After a discussion earlier today, I got to thinking about how much energy it takes to fight against something. And how tired I am of fighting to make my job situation better. I got word yesterday that due to changes at my church, I won't have as many opportunities to sing there, which takes away a little bit of income but more upsettingly a regular place for me to go sing and worship. So that's a bummer.
There's also stuff going on with my extended family that is no fun at all. It's hard not to think about it when people you care about are stressed.
Also, it's that time of year and I am walking into a similar yet dramatically changed situation. I feel nervous and there's also a part of me that still holds some resentment that the career I was promised back in 2006 has yet to match up with my reality.
I haven't given up my dreams. I will never give up on my dreams.
But I think for now, I need to give in a bit. Try to make the best of a challenging situation that at times will be really uncomfortable and probably frustrating.
Maybe some of the energy I save by not fighting will go towards some fun things to come. I just have to keep hoping there are things like that to come in the future.
And maybe a little positive self-talk will keep me on the right path.
Say it with me, everyone: