A Dream Is a Wish Your Heart Makes???

Every so often on this li'l blog, the subject of being single comes up. (You know, the "Maiden" part of being a "Maiden Aunt.") I try not to bemoan being single but instead talk about both the ups and downs of the single life, as well as my hopes for (and, uh, eventual progress towards) marriage.

I figured the dream I had yesterday morning was a cue to bring up the subject.

At the beginning of my dream, it seemed to be the morning of my wedding (!) and I needed to put on my dress. I look up at rows of people seated in what looks like a balcony, and I'm searching for my sister, to get her assistance. I'm asking out loud for my sister. She's not there.

So I give up and go inside what is supposed to be my parents' house (for purposes of the dream), and my mom is sitting in front of the TV, smoking a cigarette. (IRL, she does smoke, so that's not weird.) She says something like she'll help me as soon as she's done, but she's not exactly springing out of the armchair. I'm watching the time tick by on a clock: 9:00, 9:10, 9:15. . . Doesn't anybody care that I have to be somewhere? And where's my sister?

And then the whole dress situation is weird. I find myself debating what kind of dress to wear to dinner that night because I'm meeting the groom's parents then. Uh, I haven't met them yet? And I'm having dinner with them the same day as the wedding?

The other thing I can't explain is that I am really, really, really thirsty. I keep thinking it and saying it, and I can't seem to get anything to drink or any relief. It feels so awful that it just overwhelms me.


I woke up at that point. I had to get ready for church.

I've been interested in dream interpretation since my teens, so naturally I was wondering what, if anything, it all meant. There's a dream dictionary I look at every once in a while, and so I looked up a few key terms: Wedding, Thirst, and Sister.

Hmmm.

Granted, church yesterday was kind of a big deal, because like last year there was a special Mass and I had to sing, so. . . maybe the whole wedding thing was my "anxiety" about singing (and what I was going to wear, because eyes would be on me).

The other stuff? Well, I have been missing Younger Sister quite a bit lately. I haven't seen her in a few months, and in the past week or so, other than a few e-mails we haven't talked much. The good news is that today I happened to be dropping off some things at my parents' when she called Mom to ask about what to give Dad for his upcoming birthday. Mom handed the phone to me to confer, and then when Mom had the phone again we all had a good laugh about possible appropriate fitness magazines for Dad ("Silver Fitness"? I suggested).

And the thirst? I don't know. "To dream that you are thirsty, symbolizes an unmet need. There is an emotional void in your life. Or you may be seeking for some inspiration, motivation or just an extra push." Possible on all three counts, I suppose. There's a lot of loneliness in my life still. I'm struggling with my writing--dying to do more of it beyond note-taking, but hard to devote the time.

The final part--where I need an extra push--is that I am determined to get my apartment completely cleaned up and de-cluttered so that I can get that new stereo I've wanted for a long time now. I made a good dent this weekend, but it has been frustrating not to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. With all the job searching, new job stuff, cat illness stuff. . . I've been treading clutter-water for way too long now.

I know, it didn't happen overnight, so it's not going to get better overnight, either. (Unless elves come around.) I just wish I knew how to take care of it faster.

Same thing with the loneliness, I guess.

Comments

Solitary Diner said…
If you find a source for elves, could you send some my way?
Dave E. said…
Ditto on the elves.

That's an interesting site about dream meanings. I'm not going to say I buy into it 100% at this point, but it'll be kind of fun to do some testing in the next few weeks. I'll have to remember to do it in the morning though. I almost always wake up knowing what I had dreamed the night before, but unless it was particularly vivid or I make an effort to remember it those dreams fade quickly during the day.

I wish I could say more than just hang in there regarding the big picture, but I'm kind of in the wrong city for much else. Keep the faith, Kate.
Angela Noelle said…
I definitely believe there is something to dream interpretation. It's so fascinating that when we're dreaming is pretty much the only time that our brain is fully surrendered to the subconscious and the crazy things that lurk in there. I definitely think a lot of your interpretations are very valid. It sounds like some sister time needs to be planned for the very near future :)
Kate P said…
S.D.--I'm working on it. . . I think had an Elvis sighting in the meantime!
(BTW, gang, she's got a great blog. I can't seem to comment on it b/c Firefox gives me a hard time with the form. But go check it out.)

Dave--we all need elves! Yeah, we had the "vivid dreams" conversation at your blog when you were quitting smoking, right? It's fascinating stuff. And thanks for the encouraging words; I'm going to have a beer tonight at trivia and try to get my mind off things.

Angela--yup, lots of crazy lurking in this here brain. But mostly harmless crazy. :) And it certainly has been too long since my last Scrabble match with my sister! I think she's coming up for my cousin's fiancee's bridal shower next month, so I'm counting the days.
Solitary Diner said…
Awww...thanks! Too bad about Firefox...not sure what's up with that. You've got a great blog too - I plan to read more of it once I get some free time (heh).
Kate P said…
Thanks, S.D.! Yeah, it's something about the drop-down box option for commenting that just doesn't work. Firefox is starting to get on my nerves, but I left IE for Firefox, so I don't know what I'd use next. Stop by and read anytime!

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